Reunion

As you can tell by the lack of blogging lately, nothing interesting has happened.

Except that last friday I saw my ex-boyfriend T. after not seeing him since 2005. Well, I almost fainted. He has gotten so gorgeous. He grew a goatee, and his hair is long and curly and he grew like 6 inches. We went for coffee, and we've spent nearly every day together after that. It's just like old times, and I have have to admit, I question our break-up.

It wasnt bitter and messy. We just one day realized that we were more friends who made out, then boyfriend/girlfriend. But now, we've both matured, we're both legal, and we're both seniors in high school, hormones are flying. We almost gave in to each other yesterday.

One hic, we both have ppl in our lives, and as much as we want each other, we had to resist. Although I'm committed to J., I think I'm falling for T. again. He just understands me better then anyone. We both like the same passions, the same movies. Our music tastes differ, but that doesn't bother me that much. I remember once we went to the Central Library downtown. We were both overwhelmed by the three stories of books we came upon.We actually..."read a book" between the science-fiction and horror section. Twice.

With J., stuff like that never happens. He would never pick up a book if a teacher didnt tell him to. He knows nothing of pop culture and he only listens to gangsta rap. I really like him, but I don't think its gonna stick..On the other hand, T. and his gf have been together for over a year..so there must be something there. I dont want to let go of J. if T. isnt available. I know it sounds selfish, and maybe it is, but it's how I feel. I want to have my cake and eat it too!

Torn